The month of October is Pregnancy, Infant and Child Loss Awareness Month. Throughout the month, we will be sharing stories from families about their loss and honoring their pregnancy journey and their angel babies. The above quote by Barbara Kingsolver seemed perfect for today’s post. Today’s story is shared by Mary Nava. Mary lost her little girl almost 44 years ago, but she will never forget the day. Even as she wrote this for the blog, she was surprised by how raw her emotions still were. Thank you, Mary, for sharing your story with us. We are so honored to have you be a part of this.
January 5th, 1973 you were born.
I named you Heather Dawn. You were my second child, my first also being a girl. My pregnancy with you was not as perfect as your sister’s was. You see, there was this nagging feeling in my being that something might not be right, but I was assured my pregnancy was normal.
And then there you were in my arms, a beautiful baby girl.
I was in love!!! Soon on your third day of life, there was a flurry of nurses and doctors swirling around you. The next couple of days were a blur. And so scary! The test results revealed you had a congenital heart defect. We were told all they could do was keep you comfortable, that surgery was not an option.
That morning, I kneeled and prayed for a miracle but would accept God’s decision if that wasn’t to happen. I prayed he would answer quickly, so when the phone rang before I could even get off my knees, I just knew.
You were taken from me and my heart was broken.
Over time I healed and life went on. But you remain in my heart and will always be the little angel lying in my arms.
Mary is happily married to her best friend and soul mate, Ben, and they live in Yucaipa, CA. Ben is a Professor at the School of Medicine at Loma Linda University, where many students become doctors & pediatricians to make a difference. Mary is recently retired and enjoying many new hobbies. Her joy is her family and friends, and Henry her cat! Her goal each day is to try and make a difference, no matter how small!